I had an interesting thought yesterday. To explain, here's a summation of the circumstances.
I thought I had some friends. It turned out that I was wrong, I had some acquaintances. Much of my, "I want to go home" stuff is because I'm lonely. However, I'd still be lonely even if I went back to my previous city, because I've learned that I was delusional in the friend/acquaintance department. So, much of my distress is not about location, it's about reality vs. delusional thinking.
See, I was happy, because I was delusional. Now I'm less delusional, and I'm unhappy about it. This delusion was all in my head, it was how I was thinking, not fact, that kept me content. So, without becoming delusional again, what/how can I think to become more content in my new circumstances?
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